Big plans

It is amazing how many things can be made in the microwave! I am hoping this means cooking is a lost art and no one will notice how truly horrible I am at it. I am a bit worried about this whole fainting in surgery business, obviously I am not better at medicine that cooking. It's that time where everyone I know will be finishing school and making big plans for their lives, and it is quite nerve wracking. I have no big plans, I had plans and then everything turned upside down and I started over, with less plans. It has been amazing to have the opportunity to choose classes based solely on what sounds most interesting, and not be thinking about grad school or being a real person. I don't know for how long it is acceptable to fath about this way with no big ideas, but it feels like that time is almost up. I am headed to NY in April and by then I am going to need a plan to graduate, and ideally some ideas about what to do next, and a visa.

This is me, being useful

I scrubbed in on two hysterectomies yesterday and got to hold the retractor! Which basically made my life complete, and almost makes up for the fact that I promptly passed out. Watching the surgery was very surreal, I have been dissecting a cadaver this year and so I thought I had a pretty good idea on what insides look like, but I don't. Everything was so bright and colorful. The bowel seems not to be held in place at all, as when the surgeon opened the abdominal cavity she just started shoving them up and out of the way. The smell, when they first open the skin and then cortarize the superficial vessels down to the fascia, is horrific. Burning epithelium and melting fat. It wasn't until the second surgery, when I got to actually hold things and be useful that I felt ill. It took me by surprise because I couldn't see any of what was going on, and so it wasn't a reaction to all the blood. Perhaps I was overexcited, or perhaps it started to actually become real, but either way it was embarrassing. I did, however, manage not to fall onto the patient or any of the doctors, which I consider an accomplishment.

Alison Pope

We must take a moment and mourn the loss of poor dear Alison Pope, who was forced to return to the states by university and something about pre med requirements. She will be truly missed. Let us also collectively remind her again that, swords are not for throwing and no pick up line should include the word tarsus.

This is me, and cheesecake

Tonight Joey and I decided was a good night for british comedy and cheese cake. Of course, as soon as you mention MS cheesecake everyone wants a piece, which is how you end up at a petrol station on a Tuesday night buying three boxes of cheesecake and full of self respect. It's the kind of experience that makes me want to walk up to the till and ask, "do these cheesecakes come with a larger pair of trousers?" because they should. Then the till man asks we if i would like some petrol. There are no cars at the petrol station, there is no one else in the station, this man watched me walk across the parking lot from my non-car and into his shop; and still, maybe I need some petrol, for after I eat all the cheese cake and need to burn what's left of my dignity? But the actual cheesecake eating experience is worth it, especially while paired with some live at the apollo .

At least it's getting warmer out.

I have spent this weekend studying for yet another anatomy exam. I am starting to think this class will be the death of me. Although if I hadn't been studying the wrong sections for the past week and a half I would be in better shape. Now I have the next 24 hours to learn everything that is going to be on the exam and a great understanding of many things that wont be. Obviously this means I should be blogging. Back on Friday, when I thought I had this all under control, I went out with Steven and Raj for what was supposed to be one cocktail, and ended up being a rather epic night of dancing. I learned that I am not the kind of girl who can wear heals, and spent most of the night dancing barefoot. It is good to be back in the city and it is even better to have a hot water bottle to sleep with.

All things not anatomy

In the sprit of the new year, and of not revising for my anatomy exam i shall share with you a list of possible resolutions. I don't know anyone who actually fallows their new years resolution, but it is always good to begin the year by evaluating ones own life in a self-deprecating manner.

This year I will:

1. Revise for my anatomy exam
2. Eat protein
3. Go to the gym for more then a shower
4. Sleep in my own room at least 4 nights a week
5. Cook noodles before eating them

This year I will not:

1. Impulse buy vegetables I have no means of cooking
2. Nap everyday
3. Get involved with men who are stupid
4. Judge people for their bad haircuts on the tube
5. Use the words "pants" or "gobble" in any context, as to avoid confusion

And on a related note, how I actually spent the new year...

As always, there was dancing

 The Kauai scene is pretty lousy, but I managed to go to the point with my sister and Ishan

HAPPY NEW YEARS

Goats and other rural things

I have spent the last week at home, and as home is a rural island in the middle of the Pacific I decided to spare you the details and not blog about it. Then I came to my senses and realized that if you are reading my blog you are either:

A. My mother
B. Tragically bored
C. Conducting an in depth study on social awkwardness in young adults

I spent the better part of this week adjusting to the 10 hour time difference, eating all the free samples at Costco with my sister and playing with chickens. The great thing about living on Kauai is that none of these activities require trousers. Although at one point I found myself feeding the chickens in my knickers and had a very sister-wife moment. I could suddenly hear banjos being played in the background, and not even the good kind of banjos that I find inexplicably attractive, but the kind played by inbreds in bad movies (and my parents when they find me feeding the chickens in my knickers). My mum and I went shopping, which involves taking an airplane because we actually live in the middle of nowhere. I also did a fair amount of revision for the exam I have monday and avoided all direct sunlight.